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Hi, I am Marion and welcome to my blog! This blog is about messages of comfort I have received during the difficult moments in life, especially concerning our infertility and dealing with cancer, as my mom and our dog Shumi have been diagnosed with that dreaded disease! I am hoping that it will also give others some comfort.

I am 40 years old - DH an I have been married for 14 years and we have been TTC for more than 11 years. We live in beautiful, sunny South Africa together with our adorable boxers Shumi and KT and we have adopted a Jack Russel called Nandi recently.

I was diagnosed with endometriosis stage 2, adenomyosis in my uterus and I have had quite a few polyps lately. I was told by many different FS’s that I have unexplained infertility, but my FS has recently decided that I have autoimmune problems, which affects implantation, although we cannot prove it as the tests are not available here in South Africa. DH’s sperm analysis is more than adequate, but about a year ago it was proven with a sperm apoptosis test that 48% of his sperm are genectically defective .

We finally got a positive pregnancy test on 28 April 2010 – something I thought I would never see. At seven weeks there was one embryo with a heartbeat and one blighted ovum, but unfortunately by 10 weeks no heartbeat could be detected anymore. I was told I had a missed miscarriage. Our FS wants to do another IVF again, but we overextended ourselves financially with our last IVF so I don’t think we will do another again, even though we were so close to having a baby…

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on August 9, 2010 at 3:51 pm | Reply Charmaine

Thanks for blogging Marion.
It’s inspriational and I’ll definitely visit your site again.
on September 13, 2010 at 2:33 pm | Reply Jennie

I love your blog it is so inspirational. Sorry I had to laugh at the doggy !
I loved your blog about being a Christian it really helped me get through a rough patch , So please continue ……
on January 9, 2011 at 6:16 pm | Reply lesli westfall

Hi Marion,

I received an email from a friend in Botswana who has a friend in South Africa having a difficult time with infertility, etc. I am here in the States, I assume you live in S. Africa? Don’t know. But do you know of any support group or help in your area that I might refer her to?

Thanks for info. Here is my email info@DancingUponBarrenLand.com if you have some info to send!

Blessings,
Lesli
on April 13, 2011 at 6:00 pm | Reply BleedingTulip

Hey Marion, in response to your comment on “Grafting a Branch” here is the url:
http://pursuingparenthood.wordpress.com/
hope to see you there
on October 18, 2011 at 12:01 pm | Reply adesolaf

Hi Marion,

I recently started following your blog and after I read the post from yesterday, I believe I am hooked to keepingmyeyesonjesus. I subscribe to a daily devotional called Encouragement for Today and below is the post for today: October 18, 2011. I could not help but share this with you, as my mind kept going back to your post from yesterday as I read on.

Tired of Waiting on God by Tracie Miles

“Isaac was sixty years old when Rebekah gave birth to them.” Genesis 25:26b (NIV)

Do you ever get tired of waiting on God to answer your prayers? Recently, I began to feel a sense of frustration with the wait, and also a little bit tired.

Tired of saying the same old prayer day after day, month after month, year after year. Tired of telling God about the same old problems still going on. Tired of hearing myself pray about the same old problems, leading me to wonder if God was as tired of hearing my prayer requests as I was of praying them.

So I bowed my head and admitted to God that I was simply tired of the wait.

In a heavy state of emotional tiredness, I turned to the crisp, white pages of my Bible. I was hoping God would illuminate a few verses that would jump out of the book and straight into my heart.

I began reading about when Isaac’s wife Rebekah gave birth to twin sons. One particular sentence caught my eye and I read it again and again. My heart leapt as I realized God was using this one little sentence to speak hope into my spirit. He used His spiritual highlighter just as I had wanted.

Genesis 25:26 tells us that Isaac was sixty years old when his twins were born; a simple Bible fact, yet profoundly meaningful to me on this specific day. You see, Isaac had been patient for the Lord to provide the perfect wife; he was forty years old when he married Rebekah. If you do the math you realize Isaac waited twenty years for Rebekah to bear him children! He could have chosen a concubine to bear him a son. But he was a man of great patience who waited on God. Eventually his patient faith was rewarded.

Isaac never gave up hope that his Lord could make the impossible, possible. He had learned that his Lord would provide. So he continued to pray the same desperate prayer for a son, day after day, month after month, year after year. In fact, we learn in Genesis 25:21 that “Isaac pleaded with the Lord” (NLT), meaning he earnestly and strongly prayed about his problem. He did not half-heartedly ask God for a son, he pleaded! He begged. He poured his heart out.

I can envision Isaac passionately pleading to God throughout those twenty years, with out-stretched arms and a tear-stained face pressed against the hot, dirty soil, begging God to answer his prayer.

Isaac was surely tired of the wait, but he never stopped praying or believing that his dreams could come true. And in God’s perfect timing, they did.

If you are tired of the wait, you may be pleading to God just like Isaac. It may take twenty years for God to answer our prayers, or it may only take twenty minutes. But today, let us find comfort in remembering Isaac’s patient faith and take hope in believing that God is not tired of hearing our prayers. Instead, He is simply waiting for the perfect time to answer.

Dear Lord, please help me have patience and faith while I wait to hear from You. Help me live in excited anticipation for the day when I will see how You answer my prayers. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
on February 10, 2012 at 10:57 pm | Reply Anni

Hi there
I came across your story on a forum. It gives me so much hope because I have been ttc for 5 years and I have endometriosis. Now I finally had some immunological tests including Clotting factors and APA but everything looked normal. So I was thinking same old, same old, I just seem to have a bit of endometriosis and that somehow seem to stand in my way. I have had one ectopic and 3 chemical pregnancies. I just now have made an appointment at a clinic which does intralipids. Your story gives me hope that the Intralipids can also help me…
A
on March 12, 2012 at 5:02 pm | Reply Luisa

Hi there,
I’m an American living in South Africa the last 5 years with my husband who is from here (Johannesburg). We have been trying to conceive for 4 years now. I’m desperate to find a Infertility support group! just to chat to others in the same situation. I feel I cannot talk to my friends as they are all pregnant or have up to 3 children by now. I feel so alone in my struggle and I turned 41 this year. I cant seem to function, I feel like Hannah crying out to God, and I’m waiting for the prophet to tell me I will conceive like her, once she heard his words she got up and there was no more sorrow in her heart. I need that relief, this is the hardest pain I have ever endured in my entire life.
on March 31, 2012 at 8:29 pm | Reply Christa

Hello…. I came across your blog and like so many others have been trying for years with many failed procedures. I am now 40 and feel desperate. Was wondering if you ever chat or email? Your story is inspiring and I’d love to talk more.