The dreaded due date is here:

Well,  its eventually arrived.  Today is the day our babies should have been born according to the due date calculators and my FS.  I have been dreading this day for over a month now, and yes, I am sad, but I think I’m holding up better than I thought I would.  On the one side [...]

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2010 in hindsight:

Last year was rough. One of the toughest ever, but I think also one of the most memorable. So much happened and although I felt at times that I would not survive it, I did! I don’t want to complain in this post, because you all know by know what my hardships were. Instead I [...]

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Could have, should have…

I cannot help to think about what could have happened or what should have happened.  I’m talking about my pregnancy.  The due date (6 January 2011) is getting closer and closer and if I think about the fact that my pregnancy started out as a twin pregnancy, it just makes me realize that I would most [...]

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101 posts!

I saw after I posted my last post that it was in fact my 100th post. So I think I’ll rather celebrate my 101st post here! Since it’s almost ICLW I’ll also make this my ICLW introduction.  Welcome all new readers! It’s been almost 6 months of blogging and have those 6 months flown by!  But [...]

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My follow up appointment:

The day of our appointment has finally arrived exactly one month after my evacuation D & C.   The FS said that our little baby had Trisomy 13 or Patau syndrome and that is where the foetus had an additional third chromosome 13 and that is caused by nondisjunction of chromosomes during myosis.  In layman’s terms [...]

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The unexplained factor:

I’ve been feeling a little guilty about something I’ve written in yesterday’s post as I’m afraid you might misunderstand what I tried to say.  It’s all about this part:  “I must say I’m feeling a bit better about the miscarriage knowing what went wrong…”  It sounds horrible, that the fact that my baby was abnormal [...]

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The genetic results are back:

The sister phoned me regarding the genetic tests that were done and she said that it revealed aneuploid 13, which is a severe form of chromosomal disorder and that is the reason for my miscarriage.  I guess we will have some more information next week Wednesday when we see our FS and the sister says [...]

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Warning: Not a very nice post…

What I’m going to say in this post is very hard to say.  I’m being honest here about stuff that I sometimes don’t even want to admit to myself, let alone all of you reading this, but I feel I need to get it out there so that you can get a better picture of [...]

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We are back!

We came back yesterday late afternoon from our holiday.  We were only gone for 6 days – but it was long enough.  I must say it’s a lot warmer at the coast – we noticed it immediately last Saturday when we stopped there, and again last night here at home. We had a pleasant time [...]

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I’m not pregnant anymore:

I haven’t blogged much lately because I don’t really have the words to express how I’m feeling.  I can say I’m very sad, terribly disappointed, depressed and incredibly tired, but it does not convey my actual feelings.  It’s so much more than that, and I don’t have the words… I must say that I’ve had [...]

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