Archive for February, 2012

2 Month/9 Week Update:

I am totally amazed at how blessed we are to be baby G’s parents. He is such a happy, calm and easy baby and its pure pleasure being his mommy. He is quite a little charmer, charming everybody with his smiles and laughs, even strangers in shops. The consequence is that we get a lot of attention wherever we go!

He rarely cries, the worst was when he got his vaccinations a week and a half ago and that did not even last 5 minutes because I was able to offer him a boob for comfort. The other times that he cries are when he is hungry, which doesn’t happen often because most of the time I feed him long before it is necessary for him to cry, or when he has cramps and that also doesn’t happen often and as soon as DH or I pick him up he stops.

Baby G is a strong baby – he can keep his head up for quite a bit now if we hold or carry him upright and he can move his head from one side to the other. He does this quite often because he is a very alert baby and he notices new things daily. He loves to stare at our fish tank, patterns on bedding or curtains, the dogs, or anything he hasn’t seen before. The other day he noticed the inside of my cupboard when I was breastfeeding him and I had trouble to get him to feed as he stopped frequently to have a look again. He also loves to kick his legs against us and try to stand or climb up our bodies. Only he knows where he wants to climb to.

I had him weighed and measured today and he weighs 5.36 kg’s and measures 62 cm long. When he got his vaccinations on the 16th February he weighed exactly 5 kg and measured 61 cm. Once again I was told that he is a big boy. He measured around the 90th percentile for length and somewhere in between the 50th and 60th percentile for weight.

He is sleeping very well these days and he wakes me once or twice a night. His sleeping patterns have changed from 20h00/12h00/2h00/4h00/6h00 at 4 weeks to 20h00/2h00/4h00/6h00 around six weeks to some nights either 20h00/2h00/6h00 or 20h00/4h00/6h00 or still 20h00/2h00/4h00/6h00. I am quite happy with that and the sister who did the vaccinations told me that we are very lucky that he sleeps so well.

During the day he naps 3-4 times but then only for 30-45 minutes at a time, because he feeds every 2 hours in the mornings, but he cluster feeds from the late afternoon until he goes to bed at 8. Getting him to sleep at night is also no problem, if I put him down when he is drowsy but still awake he will fall asleep within 5 minutes. So during the night I’m up for 15-30 minutes at the most depending on whether I need to change a nappy or not.

Baby G loves to be naked, so he loves bath time and he actually doesn’t mind having his clothes changed either. DH calls his changing mat his happy place. I try to let him lie there without a nappy for a little while every time I change his nappy, but I have to be careful that he doesn’t wee all over me or the room when lies there without a nappy.

Baby G also loves to play on his activity play mat nowadays, or to play peek-a-boo with us and he is also interacting with other games. For instance the other day he was lying on our bed and he kicked DH in the stomach and DH acted as if baby G kicked him over and fell over backwards. Baby G just loved that! When DH came up again he kicked him again, and once more DH fell over. That went on for so many times and baby G was smiling and laughing all the way through that game!

He has also started to suck his hands after feedings and chew his fingers when he is hungry. We even caught him out with his thumb in his mouth three times now, so I tried giving him a dummy (pacifier) but he doesn’t want it at all. Once when I tried to give it to him for a long time he started to gag and eventually puked over me, so I don’t know what to do. I would prefer it if he sucks a dummy rather than his hands or his thumbs.

Breastfeeding is still going very well – the only food baby G has had up to now has been breast milk and almost all feedings were straight from the boob. I think he’s had about 5 or 6 bottles with expressed breast milk up to now. I also have about 500ml of frozen breast milk in the fridge. The supply of milk is so good that it’s spraying out from the early mornings until early afternoons. If I pump I usually do it after feeding baby G in the early mornings and if we don’t use the milk during the day it gets frozen. So far we are not using the frozen breast milk yet, since my supply is so good, and to be honest it is just so much easier to give it straight from the boob.

For those ladies who were worried about me not taking the pill – the moment baby G slept through from 20h00 to 4h00 two days in a row (which started the day I posted about my 7 week check-up) I knew I had to start taking it. My Obgyn warned me that the moment I have stretches longer than 6 hours between breast feeding or pumping my cycles might return and then there is off course a chance of getting pregnant, and although I would love to get pregnant again asap it would not be wise now due to the fact that I had a c-section.

So I’ve been on the pill for almost 2 weeks now, but I must say I’ve taken it late twice already, so it’s going to take a while to get into a routine of taking it every day at the same time. It’s been so long since I’ve taken birth control pills. I think the problem is that the instructions say I have to take it at night and around the same time at night, so initially I thought 20h00 would be best when I put baby G in bed. The thing is if I do take pills I usually take it in the mornings with my breakfast, so I’m wondering if I should rather change it to breakfast time as I’m sure I would not forget it then, as I’m currently taking a multi vitamin and omega 3 pills at breakfast anyway. My breakfast times vary though – anytime from 6h30 to 8h30.

2 months old


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I Failed Again:

RIP Shumi : 5 April 2005 - 22 February 2012

Yesterday we had to make a very difficult decision – we had to euthanize Shumi.  It was just getting too bad, there was a huge lump on the left side of his face and his breathing was getting harder and harder.  I knew this decision had to be made soon, and I really hoped that I could get a breakthrough and see full and complete healing for Shumi, but it was not to be.  That is actually the reason I’ve been so scarce on the internet.  I studied and studied and looked for some kind of revelation, but nothing I tried worked…

What makes it so bad is the fact that I know it was God’s will for Shumi to be healed and I know God had healed him in the spiritual realm.  But for some reason I just could not make it manifest in this physical realm.  That is why I say I failed again, just like I did when my mom passed away.  That is not easy to live with and it just makes me realize more why so many people say things like, “maybe it was not God’s will,” because it sure does eases one’s own conscience, but I know the truth and there is no use trying to dodge the responsibility.

It’s my fault Shumi got sick and it’s my fault he died.  I can still clearly remember not long before he got sick I would say things like, “I love you so much, I don’t know what would happen if something should happen to you,” and things like “I hope I never ever have to be in a position where I have to decide whether to euthanize one of my dogs.”  And I not only said those things I had a genuine fear that Shumi would die.  I guess it was brought on by my infertility – I poured all my love on Shumi and treated him almost like a child, and it felt like he and DH was all I had to live for.  So the words and the fear opened a door for the devil to attack us and he did it with cancer…  Then I learnt about supernatural healing and I’ve been studying it for more than a year and a half now, and I still could not get him healed.

Shumi was such a special dog – everyone that knew him thought so.  He was the breeder’s favourite, he bonded as a pup with my sister’s oldest daughter when she was just 21 months old and Shumi was 6 months old (those two were inseparable) and all our neighbours that lived around us loved him to bits.

He was so social that he would visit our neighbours in the estate we lived in and he even sometimes slept over in their houses.  If anyone had a social gathering on at their house, Shumi would be there and all their guests also knew him and loved him.  Once I even saw a stranger, a woman, sit on the sidewalk across from our house watching our house.  I called DH and he went outside to talk to her – it turned out she lived outside our estate, but for some reason she sometimes came there and visited Shumi.  That particular day Shumi was inside the house with us, so she waited outside patiently hoping to see him.

Even people who weren’t dog lovers loved him, because he was so well behaved.  A lot of people think boxers are naughty dogs and need a lot of attention – I can honestly say Shumi was never a naughty dog.  I’ve wondered many times what the dog whisperer would have thought of him because he really had no issues at all.

He was so happy to see baby G when we brought him home, but Shumi just stood about a metre away and wagged his tail, as if he knew he couldn’t touch or lick baby G due to the blood and snot coming from the lump on his head.  That made me so sad, because Shumi absolutely adored children and puppies, and he never could enjoy or get to know baby G due to his illness.  At least he saw him…

My heart is broken and I miss him so much, but I know his suffering is over now.  I know some people say animals have no souls or spirits and when they die, they just die, but I like to believe he is in heaven now, in a perfect body, with no more pain or discomfort, playing with all our babies and my mom and our previous boxers, Pippin, Tiger and Simbi…

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7 Weeks Postpartum:

I had my check-up with the Obgyn yesterday, and all is well.  He said I healed well and the c section scar is just a thin pink line.  I think it’s partly due to the fact that I’ve always scarred well, but also due to the fact that the Obgyn works so neatly.  The midwife said when we were in theatre, in front of the Obgyn, that she always tells him that he can become a plastic surgeon when he gets tired of being an Obgyn.

He did a physical exam, as well as an external scan to check that my uterus is back to its original size, and then he started to look for my ovaries.  It took quite a while for him to find the left one, but he couldn’t find the right one.  He said I don’t have to worry though as that is a good sign that they are still shut down due to the breastfeeding, and that he would only see them if I had a cyst or follicles as they are surrounded by my small intestine.  So I’m not going to worry about that.

He also did a pap smear and then he said that my cervix was twisted to the left and it’s irritated because it started to bleed when he did the pap smear.  Fortunately it was nothing like my last pap smear, at the FS that did my first IVF – then I bled so much that the bed I was lying on, as well as the gown I was wearing was soaked in blood.  So far I’ve only had a tiny bit of spotting this morning.

We also had a discussion I haven’t had in ages – birth control.  He gave me a script for a progesterone-only pill, since I’m exclusively breastfeeding and all the other pills will affect my milk supply, but he also said that while I’m breastfeeding exclusively I will not get pregnant, so I will think about it a bit before I decide if I’m actually going to take the pill or not.

I also asked him the question I’ve been thinking about already for quite some time – how long before we can try to get pregnant again? At first he said we shouldn’t try for at least 18-24 months.  I was not happy with that answer!  I told him that I’m almost 41 years old and then he said that he would recommend that we wait another 6 months before trying but then I can’t try for a vaginal birth again, because it would be too soon, so together with this fact and the fact that my cervix gave trouble with baby G’s birth and what he saw with my pap smear he would suggest I should just go for a c section when I get pregnant again and not even try a vaginal birth.  This coming from a Obgyn that is pro-vaginal birth.

My midwife told me 4 days after baby G was born that I can only go to them for our second child if there will be an 18 month gap between the two babies.  They won’t attempt a vaginal birth earlier than that as they think it’s too risky.  She also warned me that they don’t do scheduled c sections at the birthing centre I went to, so if I want to give birth there again I have to try a vaginal birth.  So I guess we will see how quickly I will get pregnant again, and then decide how and where I’ll give birth.  I know my mom was pregnant with my sister when I was 5-6 months old, and she had a c section with me and she even went over the due date by almost 2 weeks before she also had my sister via c section, and there were no complications.

The only problem I have with the fact that I might have to go for a c section again is that the first 4-5 weeks after the c section were really very sore, and I had hoped not to go through that again.  The first night already they told me that my body is processing the pain medication a lot quicker than normal, and the effect was that I had to get stronger medication than normal, and even that worked out before I was allowed to take the next dose.  Most ladies I know who have had c sections told me it was not so bad, but mine was really not fun!  Up to 2 weeks postpartum I could only sleep on my back and if I tried to sleep on my side I had really sharp stabbing pains in my abdomen that were incredibly sore.  Later I could sleep on my side but I woke up every time I turned because of the stabbing pains.

Also for some weird reason I got the same gas pains one gets after a lap, after my c section.  It is obviously not normal because no one in the birthing centre knew what it was.  Even my midwife was worried that there might have been something wrong with my lungs and asked the Obgyn to come and see me.  I just had to tell him that it feels like lap gas pain and he knew exactly what was wrong, fortunately he knew of medication that would work and prescribed it to me.  Just in time because a little before that I was actually in so much pain I begged my DH with tears in my eyes to try and rub my back in the hope that it would alleviate some of the pain.  I could almost not hold baby G while breastfeeding as his weight made the pain even worse.

I was really very disappointed that baby G’s birth ended in a c section, and I don’t know if that had maybe something to do with the fact that I didn’t cope well afterwards.  I know around 5 weeks postpartum I had to have a good talk with myself and change my attitude, and then I started to gradually feel better.

I must say I don’t think I’ll go to this Obgyn again, even though I really like him, but he is just too far away for us.  His practice moved recently and it took us about 1.5 hours to get there and the same to get back home.  I cannot see us driving all that way in the later stages of pregnancy on a weekly basis.  The only way I can see us using him again is if we go through my midwife again and only go and see him once at 34 weeks.

I weighed myself yesterday at the Obgyn and I have lost about 12 kg’s in the last 7 weeks.  That means I’m 2 kg’s lighter than I was before I got pregnant.  I’m happy about that, but I hope to lose another 3-5 kg’s or so.  I was at my heaviest ever when I got pregnant.

Baby G is also doing very well at 7 weeks.  He is sleeping much better during the day now, and he only wakes us around 2h00 in the morning and then again around 6h00.  So I’m extremely happy about that, because I suddenly feel really good again!  No more sleep deprivation!  Since he isn’t waking so much anymore, I’ve decided that I’ll do all the night feeds again, and only pump breast milk if I’m going out for a long time so that I can feed baby G with a bottle.  I’m sure DH is happy about that decision, not that he had to do many night feeds; I think he’s only done it about 3 times.

I have noticed however that every time I pump, there is more milk, so I guess my milk supply is increasing gradually, but the days that I do pump, I have trouble in the late afternoon and early evening to get enough milk into baby G.  I have started to freeze some milk, so I do have some back up supply, if it really becomes a problem.

Baby G has grown so much that he only fits into the newborn clothes of Acker.mans, all the other brands don’t fit anymore, so we are dressing him in some newborn clothes and some 0-3 months clothes.  He is also still wearing newborn nappies (diapers) and I think it will still be a couple of weeks before he outgrows those.  I tried the eco nappy on last week, since he was 6 weeks old, but that is still way too big for him.  I think he won’t fit in it for quite some time still, so against my will, he is still in disposable nappies.

He is also smiling and laughing more and more and my MIL and FIL were treated on Sunday to his charms and they are even more in love with him now than ever!  My poor MIL was taken over the coals the other day by 2 different ladies because they thought she is treating baby G as her favourite grandchild now, and they reminded her that she has 2 other grandsons too.  But I know that is not true, the fact that she didn’t mention the other 2 at that specific moment doesn’t mean she has a favourite!  She paid a lot of attention to the other 2 too when they were babies, and they still get a lot of attention from her.  As a matter of fact my in-laws had to babysit the other 2 again this past weekend, so they see them a lot!  I’m just happy that baby G’s grandmother adores him so much and lavishes so much attention on him as she is his only grandmother.

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Two nights ago I struggled to get back to sleep after feeding baby G and my mind wandered and I suddenly felt compelled to write a post about the significance of the cross because so few people I know really know the full benefits of Jesus’ sacrifice and the significance of why He had to do it.

First of all I want to start with the basic principle which most Christians understand, but I want to write about it in any case just for those that might come upon this blog who might not be a Christian.

After Adam and Eve sinned in the Garden of Eden, by eating from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, God had to make a plan so that their sins could be forgiven.  He already made a perfect plan but that plan could not yet come to pass, so in the mean time animals had to be sacrificed so that mankind’s sins could be forgiven.

Unfortunately they kept on sinning so it was a continuous process of sacrificing animals to pay for the sins.  If someone sinned and he did not sacrifice an animal and he did not repent God had to punish that person, because that is how God works.  God said that there is a punishment for sin, and God cannot go back on His word.  Numbers 23:19 (NIV): 19 God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfil?”  Someone had to pay the penalty for the sin –  either the sinner or the sacrificed animal.

Until Jesus came along – He was God’s perfect plan – He was sacrificed on the cross and He had to die, to pay for all the sins of all mankind. It was a perfect sacrifice and the price was paid in full.  So God does not want to punish us anymore, because His entire wrath was taken out on Jesus.  When we think God punishes us today, we actually make Jesus’ sacrifice void, because we are saying it was not good enough to pay for our sins.  We are then rejecting Jesus’ sacrifice and also rejecting Jesus.

Some people are not going to be happy with this, because it might sound like I’m saying that you can go ahead and sin now, since Jesus paid for all our sins (those that we’ve already committed and those that we will still commit) more than 2000 years ago.  I’m not saying that, because there is another consequence to sinning, and that is by giving in to temptation and sinning you are giving authority over to the devil, and by doing that you are allowing him to do things in your life, like for instance make you sick.  That is not the only way of giving authority to the devil – for instance fear, unforgiveness, or speaking negative things over yourself or other people are also ways to do that.

Genesis 15:4-21 (NIV):  4 Then the word of the LORD came to him: This man will not be your heir, but a son coming from your own body will be your heir. 5 He took him outside and said, Look up at the heavens and count the stars— if indeed you can count them. Then he said to him, So shall your offspring be.  6 Abram believed the LORD, and he credited it to him as righteousness. 7 He also said to him, I am the LORD, who brought you out of Ur of the Chaldeans to give you this land to take possession of it.

 8 But Abram said, O Sovereign LORD, how can I know that I shall gain possession of it? 9 So the LORD said to him, Bring me a heifer, a goat and a ram, each three years old, along with a dove and a young pigeon. 10 Abram brought all these to him, cut them in two and arranged the halves opposite each other; the birds, however, he did not cut in half. 11 Then birds of prey came down on the carcasses, but Abram drove them away. 

12 As the sun was setting, Abram fell into a deep sleep, and a thick and dreadful darkness came over him. 13 Then the LORD said to him, Know for certain that your descendants will be strangers in a country not their own, and they will be enslaved and ill-treated four hundred years. 14 But I will punish the nation they serve as slaves, and afterwards they will come out with great possessions. 15 You, however, will go to your fathers in peace and be buried at a good old age. 16 In the fourth generation your descendants will come back here, for the sin of the Amorites has not yet reached its full measure. 17 When the sun had set and darkness had fallen, a smoking brazier with a blazing torch appeared and passed between the pieces. 

18 On that day the LORD made a covenant with Abram and said, To your descendants I give this land, from the river of Egypt to the great river, the Euphrates— 19 the land of the Kenites, Kenizzites, Kadmonites, 20 Hittites, Perizzites, ephaites, 21 Amorites, Canaanites, Girgashites and Jebusites.”

In the Old Testament God made a covenant with Abraham.  He did it so that Abraham could know that He would not break His word and that the promises he made to him would come true, and this way was the traditional custom of that day – I guess you can say the way they used to draw up a contract like we do today.  Usually the lesser person, eg the youngest would walk between the animal pieces, but here God was the one that moved between the pieces.  It signified that if one of the two parties would break the covenant then that person would be willing to be cut in half like these animals were.  So it was a seriously binding contract in those days.

When Jesus came and spilled His blood a New Covenant was made that overruled the covenant made to Abraham.  Here God Himself spilled His blood, and this time he not only paid for our sins, but he took the curse upon Himself, so that we didn’t have to be cursed.  Galatians 3:13 (NIV): 13 Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree.”  The tree here refers to the cross.

Galatians 3: 6-9 (NIV): 6 Consider Abraham: He believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness. 7 Understand, then, that those who believe are children of Abraham. 8 The Scripture foresaw that God would justify the Gentiles by faith, and announced the gospel in advance to Abraham: All nations will be blessed through you. 9 So those who have faith are blessed along with Abraham, the man of faith.” Paul says here that everybody that believes in God is a child of Abraham, and because we believe we will be blessed just like Abraham.

So by Jesus’ sacrifice not only are all the promises in the Bible applicable to all who has accepted Him as their saviour but all the curses in the Bible is not applicable anymore, because Jesus took the curse upon Him.  So once again if you think you are cursed, then you are rejecting Jesus.

Most people only know that Jesus died for our sins, but that is not the only thing He did for us.  Because of the stripes (the lashings He received before He was crucified) we don’t have to be sick, since He took that upon Himself too.  1 Peter 2:24 (NIV):  24 He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.” 

God also wants us to prosper, and not be poor.  2 Corinthians 8:9 (NIV):  9 For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.” 

The last thing that was also covered by Jesus’ sacrifice is deliverance from evil, demonic oppression and depression.  Galatians 1:4 (NIV):  4 who gave himself for our sins to rescue us from the present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father.” 

We call these 4 things the atonement.  Jesus atoned for our sins, our health, our prosperity and deliverance from evil, with his sacrifice on the cross. The price was paid – once and that one time was enough.  It is a sufficient price and it doesn’t have to be paid again, so God doesn’t want us to be sick or poor or depressed for example, because Jesus paid the full price at Calvary.  So when we are suffering from the above, we are not living a victorious life, like God intended for us.  The sad thing is most Christians don’t know this and there is most of the time no discernable difference between a Christian and someone who hasn’t been saved.  Christians are just as sick as people who are not saved, or just as poor, or just as depressed.

Do you know what the implication is of Jesus’ atonement?  You don’t have to pray and ask for healing, because God made provision for it a long time ago.  Long before you were born, God already said, “You are healed.”  That is why the verse in 1 Peter 2:24 is past tense, “by His wounds you have been healed.”  We don’t have to wonder if it’s God’s will to be healed, because it is!  Jesus paid the price, whether you make use of it or not!

The last thing I want to say is that through Jesus’ resurrection He defeated the devil once and for all!  That also means that through Christ we can defeat the devil too!  Luke 10:19 (NIV):  19I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.”

Now isn’t that good news?  No better than good news, awesome news!  Now you know that God wants you to be a victorious Christian!

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Baby G’s 6 week check up:

Baby G was 6 weeks old yesterday, but I could not get an appointment at the paediatrician for yesterday, so he went for his check up today.

He is really doing very well. The paediatrician says he is a big boy, weighing in at 4.8 kg’s and measuring 57 cm’s long, and apparently that is at least 2 cm’s longer than average. His head circumference was 39 cm, a lot bigger than the 34.4 cm when he was born. Everything the doctor checked was perfect. He asked about the milestones and baby G is right on track with each and every single one of them. When baby G was 4 days old we had Inborn Errors of Metabolism blood tests done and those tests were all negative so he is 100% healthy.

He is really getting so cute now. For a little more than a week baby G has been really smiling, reacting to things we say or do, and not the normal smiles they are born with. He does that a lot especially in the mornings just after he wakes up, which is sometimes when mommy and daddy don’t feel like waking up yet, but he is instantly forgiven when we get a wide open gummy smile. Sometimes that smile has a chuckle or a giggle that goes with it and it sure does sound a lot like a laugh to me. We get the most smiles, but since last Friday he’s been smiling at other people too.

I think he is going through a growth spurt at the moment, on Sunday he slept a lot during the day and since then he’s been very hungry! My poor boobies are struggling to keep up with the demand for milk. Usually he only drinks from one boob, and then he is satisfied and doesn’t want anymore, but since Sunday he’s been drinking from both and at times he empties them both, and then he wants more about half an hour or an hour later. It’s especially bad in the late afternoons and evenings. He had me worried a few times, wondering if we would have to supplement with formula, but so far it’s not necessary yet.

Last night baby G really did not sleep well, I wonder if that is part of going through a growth spurt? He was awake an hour earlier than normal and from then he woke every hour to 2 hours. Normally he wakes me twice during the night, last night he woke me 4 times! But, it’s ok, because I think I’m getting used to the little sleep, it doesn’t bother me as much anymore and I didn’t feel more tired than usual by this morning. At least this doesn’t happen very often – the last time we had such a bad night was shortly after baby G was born. It is still so worthwhile – I absolutely adore baby G and for him I would make many sacrifices.

Baby G slept much better from about 4h00 when he got into bed with mommy. Daddy went to sleep in the spare bedroom from 3h00, because he needs to work and he cannot do his best at work if baby G keeps him up so much. When it’s just me in bed I let baby G sleep next to me, where DH usually lies (I must say something I never thought I would do, but you do whatever you need to do to get as much sleep as possible.)

He is getting used to sleeping with mommy, because DH wasn’t feeling very well last week and he was banished to the spare bedroom for a few nights as I didn’t want to take any chances of baby G or I catching whatever bug he had, and fortunately we didn’t, and DH is better again. But those nights baby G slept almost all night with me and I can see that is his favourite place to sleep now. It’s taking me longer to get him to sleep in the cradle than it used to take, but I guess we will get through that too!

We bought a breast pump just over a week ago, but I must say I haven’t used it much yet. I am glad to say that I haven’t had any trouble pumping, because I’ve read that some mommies struggle, but my milk comes out immediately and easily. Another good thing is baby G had no problems taking the bottle, since I heard some breast babies are also really fussy about bottles. Now I can pump before going somewhere where I’ll be really self conscious about breastfeeding, like public places, and DH was able to do some of the night feeds to give me a few hours longer sleep.

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Newborn Photoshoot

On 16 january we had the newborn photoshoot with baby G when he was exactly 3 weeks old. It was a bittersweet day, because it was supposed to be my mom’s 64th birthday. I’m glad we had it on that day though, for now we have some nice memories of the day and I will never forget the date!

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