Thursday I was 10 weeks and I suddenly realized that meant 25% through my pregnancy. Wow! That was a bit of a shock… But a good, happy shock if you know what I mean.
It seems like my symptoms are getting a bit better – I’m not nauseous every day anymore and I think I’m managing things quite well, by eating regularly and avoiding things like standing too long. But that said, I still felt pretty horrible on Monday, I was nauseous from the moment I got up in the morning until I went to bed that night and Wednesday I was very dizzy quite a few times during the day. Also on Wednesday night I suddenly felt like I was getting sick with flu, or a cold or sinusitis or something, but as I know God does not want us to be sick I decided to fight this bug. I really don’t want that at this stage of my pregnancy.
Thursday I was a bit under the weather but I must say I’ve been feeling much better since Friday. I went for a facial and a neck massage Thursday (Thanks Sis! She treated me!) and I think the steam that they blow on your face helped my sinuses a lot – I could feel them opening up while the steam was blowing…
I’m still tired but I’ve noticed that by 17h00 or 18h00 if I haven’t had a nap that I have some more energy and that I can actually make it to 21h00 or 22h00 before I have to go to bed. Mostly if I do take a nap, which is only about 3-4 times a week I take it from about 16h30 until 18h00. Those days DH has to cook dinner, but he is so awesome, he does not complain at all!
I have an appointment at the foetal assessment centre on 8 June for a Foetal assessment scan, and from what I’ve read this scan is amazing. Some say the best scan during your pregnancy so I’m looking forward to that. I still feel a little lost as I haven’t decided on an obgyn or a midwife yet. I have had second thoughts about the obgyn I initially made an appointment with. I moved that appointment as it was for 10 June and I can’t see the point of going for scans 2 days apart, but I’m thinking of cancelling altogether. This doctor came highly recommended to me by 2 of my cousins, but she is so expensive! I know my medical aid will pay some towards the fees, but I think it’s more an issue of principle at this stage as she charges half as much more than what my FS charges and he is a specialist!
So I am looking at other options and one of them is getting a midwife. I really would like to have a natural birth. My mom had c-sections with both my sister and I and my sister also had 2 c-sections, but I’m not going to worry about whether I would also need a c-section as I know God’s perfect plan and design is for us to give natural birth and I believe that He has created me perfectly and healed me completely so I’m believing all will go well.
Here in South Africa the standard practice with most obgyn’s is to advise their patients to have c-sections, and very rarely these days the women who go to obgyn’s get to give birth naturally. There are really only a few ladies I know in real life that has given birth naturally in the past 10 years or so. My sister lived in the UK for a couple of years and there they rarely give birth via c-section, only when there are complications, and my sister was one of those rare cases with the birth of her first daughter. So she has been very vocal about all the c-sections being done here in South Africa and I guess that laid the foundation for me to not want one. Then I read Super.natural Child.birth and I learned what God wants for us, and easy natural pregnancies are achievable when you believe in it. Lastly a dear friend (K from New Zealand, Hi K!) told me about a documentary called The Busi.ness of Be.ing Bo.rn on You Tube and after watching that I was totally convinced that natural birth is best.
I am getting a bit more excited about this pregnancy as I have officially past the stage where I had my miscarriage and since our little nunu was so big and strong with our last scan there is more hope that this will end up to be a successful pregnancy. Not that I worried much about it, I tried to not think about bad thoughts on purpose, but I guess once you’ve had a miscarriage there will always be some little nagging thoughts that come up every now and then…
This morning after I woke up, but while I was still lying in bed I thought back to the time we started ttc right through to this pregnancy and I was once again struck with wonder, awe and total gratefulness towards God for giving us this miracle. It is really mind blowing to think that after trying for 11.5 years, after lots of operations, 8 IUI’s, 3 fresh IVF’s and 1 FET, having endometriosis, adenomyosis and uterine problems like polyps and dealing with 48% generically abnormal sperm that I could get pregnant naturally at the age of 40. And the most amazing part for me was that it took 7 months of learning about God and actively believing for that miracle for it to manifest into reality. All the time in those 7 months it felt like a long time, but now when I look back I’m actually amazed at how short a time that was…
All I can say is God is so good, He is so faithful, and He is so amazing! Nothing is impossible for Him!