I heard an amazing message again this weekend from An.drew Wom.mack from his Finan.ce se.ries, but I just want to mention a part of it that deals with faith.
An.drew Wom.mack says, “You need not only say that you trust God, that you have faith, and that what you believe will happen – you also need to act upon it.”
James 2:14 (NIV): “14What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him?”
He used the following scripture as an example: 1 Kings 17: 3-6 (NIV): “3Leave here, turn eastward and hide in the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan. 4You will drink from the brook, and I have ordered the ravens to feed you there. 5So he did what the LORD had told him. He went to the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan, and stayed there. 6The ravens brought him bread and meat in the morning and bread and meat in the evening, and he drank from the brook.”
When God told Elijah that he needed to go to the Kerith Ravine, and that the ravens would feed him there, God had already made provision. It was already done – the instruction was given to the ravens to bring food to a specific place. Elijah had to act upon it to get the food. He had to go to the right place to receive the food that God had already provided.
If Elijah said he had faith that God would provide, but stayed right there where he was, he would have starved from hunger. He had to be obedient to God’s instructions and act upon what God wanted him to do. If he didn’t do it, God wouldn’t have provided where he was, but that could not be blamed on God… It could only have been blamed on Elijah because he didn’t do what his instructions were.
Hebrews 11: 6-8 (NIV): “6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. 7By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith. 8By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.”
An.drew Wom.mack said’ “Faith reaches over and receives what God has already given you.” He also said, “Faith produces actions – the actions themselves may not be faith, but they have to be generated by faith.”
Matthew 14: 29-31(NIV): “29Come, he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came towards Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, Lord, save me! 31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. You of little faith, he said, why did you doubt?”
One example that comes to my mind is when Peter stepped out of the boat to walk on water. The actual stepping out of the boat was an act of faith for Peter. Anyone can jump over the side of a boat, but they will end up in the water and drown if they were in a similar storm. They wouldn’t be walking on water, because they did not have faith that they can in fact walk on water.
What I love about this example is that, yes, Peter stepped out in faith; he walked on water, but only for a little bit. Then his faith waivered, but he cried out to Jesus to help him and Jesus was there, and he saved him. I found this to be so relevant in my life. Believe me, I have stepped out in faith and waivered shortly afterwards many times, but Jesus was there every single time to catch me. Every time I cried out for help He was there! So don’t worry about whether you will waiver or not, just remember to call upon Jesus when you are in need. Step out in faith and get out of the boat – Jesus is there for you, just call upon Him when you are in need and He will help you.
Last year November I realized that somewhere deep inside me there was this hope that should God not give me a natural miracle pregnancy within a specific time that I could maybe go back to my FS and that he might be able to give me some treatments – if not IVF then maybe another IUI with Intra.lipids or something like that. And then I realized that while I kept that option open in my mind, my faith was not in what God could do. My faith was once again in my own abilities, and the abilities of my FS and medical technology. That was why I had to decide that I will not ever go for fertility treatments again. While I had that option open, my faith was not strong enough that I could believe that God would heal me completely. It was not easy to make this decision; everything in me screamed that I could not make such a vow, but I knew it was the right thing to do. It was what I had to do.
Let me give 2 other examples: I’ve always hated to POAS. I always got negatives, until the day we found out I was pregnant with my last IVF. That day I was impatient and couldn’t wait until the afternoon to find out and we decided to test after I went for my blood test. That was the only time I had ever gotten the elusive 2 lines.
After the decision in November I decided that I would start buying HPT’s again and test every month. I usually started spotting a day or 2 before AF was due so I decided to test with a HPT at 12dpo. In December I tested for the first time while we were on holiday but it was negative. The next 3 months I started spotting before I could test twice, and one month I got a negative again.
So in April I decided to see how early one can test. I searched the inter.net and I decided that if I could get a sensitive test that I can test at 10dpo. It seemed like the earliest day to get a BFP, so I looked for a sensitive HPT and finally I found one at a local pharmacy. The next morning I woke up at about 6am with an urgent need to relieve myself, so I got out the sensitive test and POAS. Within a minute or so I saw a very, very feint pink shadow where the second line was supposed to be. After a few minutes it was just a little bit darker, but it did look to me like a very feint second line.
I waited until DH was up and then I took the HPT to him and asked him if he too saw a feint second line. DH was not convinced there was a second line – he thought it might be my imagination. But the next day the line was there and darker and I went for a blood test and the beta came back at 50. I was pregnant. So, you see it was totally out of character for me to test so early. I’ve never done anything like that before – never, ever. But it was a way for me to act upon my faith.
I also bought some stuff for our babies before I was pregnant (I bought 2 of everything because I want 2 children.) I bought some clothes every now and then if I was at a shop that sold baby clothes. It wasn’t much and it was always cheap stuff, but I bought it and that was the important thing. I was acting as if I expected to get pregnant soon.
Now this was what worked for me – I think each of you must search your minds and see what is difficult for you to do. What do you usually avoid doing and use that as your act of faith. I always avoided POAS unless I was about 3-5 days late, I never bought stuff for a future baby and like I said it was incredibly difficult for me to give up fertility treatments for ever, but since we could not afford any more treatments, I had no option – I had to believe God will make me pregnant naturally. I realize that not everybody is like me – there are certainly people that POAS every month and some of them start early, so that might not be your act of faith. What is it that would be a real act of faith for you to do?